Tonight Tom and I had our very first parent/teacher conference. We had a 20 minute meeting with Bub's preschool teacher that I probably took way too seriously. But it felt serious. We walked in unsure and crossing our fingers that we had a well rounded, well behaved, well liked kid, and we walked out beaming like we had just won the lottery. We learned that he is making friends, listening, learning to share, and maybe even trying hard to stay focused. He is a normal little 4 year old, which really is like winning the lottery.
Slowly, slowly, slowly but surely I am beginning to ease out of the first trimester slump. Little by little I feel tiny bursts of energy and after a mucky mirage of weeks that felt endless and useless I'm starting to do things again. The laundry doesn't seem so impossible anymore, the dishes aren't as overwhelming, and I'm starting to remember the little tasks I do with the boys that I love so much. Like bedtime.
Bedtime means that Bub picks his favorite show to watch and Teebs objects. So Teebs plops on the floor to watch Thomas the Train on my computer, his own little mini TV.
He cuddles with his baby blankies
And does tiny things, little gestures, that make him look like such a big kid.
At bedtime Bub usually tells elaborate stories, anything to make our bedtime story last longer. But his stories are enchanting.
And usually there's time for at least one round of cuddles and tickles.
Bub and I always have a few minutes when the lights are off to sing our songs and get his blankets tucked in just right. Tonight with his flashlight as a spotlight he serenaded me for a change, making up the words as he went, and changing them around just a little each time he had to sing his song "one more time."
Sometimes, I'd swear, we really did win the lottery.
It's so slow, but I'm certain that I'm starting to feel better. For now it's just nice to be able to enjoy these little moments again. And to think, in a few months we'll have one more wriggling baby to enjoy moments with.
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