Most of us haven't met, but I feel like we're now tied together in a little way through this blog. If you read it, you know some pretty personal things about me and my thoughts on motherhood and even my insecurities. Some of this stuff my own friends don't know unless they read the blog! (Because who has time to make phone calls these days!?!) I'm totally comfortable putting it all out there, because it has created this bond I'm feeling with other moms and parents and it's been so valuable to me. I hope you're finding the value in sharing as well. Some of you have written me, either through comments or private e-mails to share your thoughts, experiences and disappointments and I so appreciate that. I think having a support system, even through a blog, is going to be important in my life as a new mom. I want to "be there" for you too! We're all in this together!
After my most recent blog, I got Tweets, comments and Facebook messages from some of you who were glad I talked about being a "mess" at home and struggling to be a superwoman of sorts. I think if I were to try and portray my life as perfect, a) it wouldn't be authentic and b) it would perpetuate the pressures we as women already put on ourselves. I do not have it all together, especially now. I'm in a whole new world, where I'm constantly having to adapt and compromise. Don't get me wrong... I am blessed. Big time blessed. I have everything I dreamed of having. Now I just have to figure out how to manage all my blessings!
We made it through Easter weekend and I didn't cook one meal the entire time my in-laws were here. I'm thankful they understood that I couldn't pull it all together. Instead we boosted the local economy by ordering and eating out! My in-laws actually dusted for me! I definitely had to accept the "new deal" as I'm calling it and hope for the best. So many of you have reinforced the fact that I need to spend my time and energy enjoying Kanyon and leave those dust bunnies alone. Instead of fretting in the kitchen, we all took a walk with the baby in the beautiful sunshine. I am taking your advice for sure! As I prepare for another visit from my dad and stepmom, I'll be keeping it all in mind. The hostess with the mostess doesn't reside at the Herzog home right now. She's on a break so she can focus on her sweet baby boy.
Now that I'm in my third full week at work, I'm feeling a little more "in the groove" but I have realized Mondays are the worst, emotionally and in terms of organization. So I've just decided to do what I can on Sunday night and just hold on through the sad times on Monday when we have to take Kanyon to daycare. The rest of the week seems to go pretty fast, so I can handle that. I think it was Dr. Phil who made the phrase "it is what it is" popular. It's my new mantra when it comes to having a handle on everything at home.
While I'm willing to let the housework and hostessing pressures go... I can't let myself go. Since I've decided you're all part of my support system... I'm going to put it all out there and tell you that I'm imposing a "lose the baby weight" plan starting May 1. It could take a while, but I need to do it!
I hate even saying it.
I like food too much.
However, I like being able to actually fit in my clothes.
I know since I put this on the blog that I actually have to stick to it, or I'll be eating crow! I saw myself in a new promotional commercial on air and just screamed! You know how when you look in the mirror you think you look pretty good, then you see a picture and you can't believe how big you look? (If you've never had this happen, I'm really happy for you. It's not fun.) Yeah... that was my moment the other day. I knew I had weight to lose, but seeing the full picture on our screen was like a smack to the face that I've been feeding with pretty much whatever I want.
I am not doing this to fish for compliments. Seriously. I obviously really appreciate those of you who have taken the time to write nice, encouraging notes about my hair or appearance. It's so nice and I'm not going to tell you to stop! (wink) However, I know I need to eat better and get back in the exercise groove before I don't fit on your big screen tv sets!
So.... how does a busy, working mom find time to exercise and pack/prepare healthy food when she barely has time to sleep and eat the way it is? This -- is the problem. I don't know how it's going to happen, I just know it has to happen. I need to do all this and make sure I'm getting the enough calories since I'm nursing Kanyon. Yeah... my plan has a few holes in it still. Stay tuned. I know just writing it and making it public will hopefully help me keep my eye on the prize.
I've been down this road before. I lost nearly 50 pounds before I got pregnant. It took me a little more than a year to do it and it took dedication. I didn't crash diet (wanted to do it the "right" way) and I had lots of free time then to exercise and pack healthy stuff for work. So I'll totally take your tips, moms! Let me have 'em! I figured some of you have been there done that... and would be willing to offer me some advice.
If there are other moms/women/men who want to join in the journey... holler! Let's encourage eachother to shed the pounds!
I promise the next blog entry will have all the latest Kanyon news and won't be a rant! Thanks to everyone who's commented on his pictures on my facebook page. It's so fun to share them! If you haven't seen the latest ones, Here they are!